maybe it's rapture

Look, I’m sorry. I try to be cool and everything, but I downloaded the first season of Gossip Girl recently because I had a feeling it was the kind of dramatic trash I would love (k The OC was one of my favourite shows. and I can’t watch it frequently because sometimes it’s just a lil heavy. yeah, that’s right, I’m calling it heavy. fuck you!) and in the first 10 minutes of the first episode I was like “wow this is shit!” like, genuinely surprised and kind of disappointed because I was pretty convinced I’d like it, but I finished the episode and then I watched the next one even though I should’ve been going to bed and then halfway through the third one I was crying and fuuuuuuuuuck! It’s not that time of the month. I’m not having a bad day. I don’t have any pent-up emotions. I have literally no excuse: the third episode of Gossip Girl made me cry. More than once. 

And I would watch the fourth but I’m trying to exercise some self-restraint (by blogging about it instead). whatever.